Life is not fair. It has so many directions and journeys to be completed. At this juncture, I lost my hopes and aspirations to be someone in my life. What I never felt and questioned long ago has now become a regular part of internal discourse within self. This discourse is a daily routine of my internal process until it gives the right results/outcomes. Like many other successful personalities, I wish one day I could be one of them, but my dream to become one among them is shattered and crushed. I refresh with positive vibes to rebuild my aspirations and hopes through these positive vibes, such as I can do it! All is well! I am a hero! I have energy! Ken-cho-sum is with me! Nothing is impossible, and so on.
My inner voice always reminds me that I have made a great mistake in my lifetime. But trust in God alone is a true friend; people around us have nothing to provide but just to calculate negative force. At this position of dilemma, I found myself at the crossroads, not knowing “where I am heading?” As I reflect and realise time is running fast and life is moving, what kind of moral life I am leading is not clear. What people view from the outside is different, but the internal discourse I am having is yet to be sorted out.
I came across the thick and thin process of life, where appreciation is less, and the intention of doubt is as high as the sky and as deep as the ocean. But discourse within oneself tells me that ‘when the dog bark, the mountain will not fall’; it is naturally set with a necessary foundation of rocks.
I have a vision and a goal in life to achieve, irrespective of hardship and obstacles. My journey will begin, not wait; my vision will move forward, and nothing is going to stop it; and I am going to make it unstoppable.
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